Friday, October 28, 2016

Still here.

I know it's been a while. I took a break from blogging because really ... I seriously have nothing to say. After my birthday was summer. I took some time off from the fitness thing. Not that I stopped going to boot camp, I got a little tired and stopped going as often. I was still logging my food into my fitness pal, but if I ate something bad I didn't log it. I was only cheating myself I know. 

So am I doing? 
July 2015 - October 2016. Slow and steady.

I gain back about 6 pounds this summer. I felt it. I drank a little. Ate 1 too many hot dogs at Costco (damn those hot dogs). Pizza? Yeah. Cupcakes/cake..well it's just a bite. Right? 6 pounds later...ugh. I was only cheating myself. 

Lets go back to the beginning. 
This picture is me at the end of my 1st 6 week challenge. 08/12/2015. I went from 184 to 180.5. My all time high being 187 before I started boot camp. I take pride in losing 3 pounds before I started. Hey...don't judge, I know what you are thinking keep it to yourself. *sticking my tongue out at you*

1st 6 Week Challenge (06/29/2015 - 08/10/2015)
Starting Weight 184, Ending Weight 180.5

2nd 6 week challenge (09/28/2015 - 11/09/2015) 
Starting weight 181.5, Ending weight 172.9. This picture below is at the end of the challenge. 

3rd 6 Week Challenge (01/12/2016 - 02/23/2016)
Starting Weight 169.6, Ending Weight 166.4
4th 6 Week Challenge (04/11/2016 - 05/23/2016)
Starting Weight 157.5, Ending Weight 156.4

It was my birthday month. I have no excuse really. 
Then came the summer.. I don't have photos from the Girls Night Out Challenge we did. I'll be honest I took the summer off. Like I said above I took a break. 

BUT that break is OVER!! I'm back on track! 

5th 6 Week Challenge (10/24/2016 - 12/2/2016)
Starting Weight 162.2

Lately I haven't been feeling as good - physically. Why? Because I've been eating like shit. This last weekend was my last eat like shit weekend. I really didn't eat that bad but you know tequila isn't on my nutrition plan. I had to get it out of my system. 

So who does a challenge during the holidays anyway. ME!!! I have a goal and well the holidays can be very challenging. I am an emotional eater. I eat when I am sad and I eat when I am happy. There is no in between! I'm with my family I'm so happy that I eat. I get sad when I'm not with my boys during the holidays so I eat. I like food. Saying that is hard. I've always been the skinny girl.

In high school I barely weighed in the 90's. That is me on the left.

I did pretty good in my 30's. Here I am at 36.

Then my 40th Birthday hit. Still not too bad but I felt the weight coming on. Emotionally I was not in the right place and even though I was participating in endurance events I just wasn't happy. 

41 & 1/2 - my wedding day 11/11/11
This is a photo NO ONE HAS EVER SEEN! I never printed out any photos from that weekend.  

It makes me cry looking at these photos. Not that I was unhappy about marrying Mark, there were just a lot of other things going on and well food was my only comfort.

I especially get sad when I look at this photo. People always talk about that 1 photo, what was the trigger? What finally made you want to lose weight. I present to you, Me. I was sad, I cried all the time, I was depressed and didn't even know it. 

And from 2012 - 2015 I started the YoYo dieting thing. 
October 2012 Nike Women's Half Marathon
July 2013 Barb's Race 70.3 
2014. What can I say. It was a year of disappointments for me. I DNF'ed 3 races. Wildflower Olympic, Vineman 70.3 and Barbs Race 70.3. Physically I couldn't do the races. All in all I was a really shitty wannabe Tiathlete that year. 

October 2015. Last photo's of the before's I promise. If you have ever ran an endurance race you know they offer you those great race photos. This photo was taken about 3 months after I had joined Burbank Fit Body Boot Camp. I sat at my computer and cried. 

Anyway, what is the point. It's a journey! It's hard! There is no magic pill. There isn't a magic wrap that you can put around your body that will make you skinny. Trust me, I've done it, it doesn't work. Spanx are cool, but when it comes off..everything jiggles back into place. Plain and simple it's hard work.

Refocusing and putting myself first is best thing I could have ever done for myself and my family. I'm cooking healthier and I feel good. I'm actually OK with people making fun of me, why? Because they are paying attention.  

So. This is me. Today.

What is in store for 2016! I'm back at it. IRONMAN Santa Rosa 70.3. May 13, 2017 - just 2 days after my 47th Birthday!! I'M SO EXCITED!!